Mood:
12 weeks to go. . .
Decided it might be time to add a little more updated stuffs to my journal ^_^
(If anyone should care, fun to check back and read later on tho)
r m y -
i f e
Been off from the army duties for a week now, headin back monday evening. Getting a tad worried about the upcoming live-ammo exercises they want to try us on (by us I'm refering to the 5th squadron where I serve with some intel now that the basicstraining is done) and well I dont know these people. Only the other 15 month people that I've been with since day 1 (which by the way was march 7th, anniversary coming up! w00t!). So I'm not feeling I can fully trust people I barely know with live ammo around and running the formations onward and back.
Tho ofcourse that would just be me worrying too much since they do plan these maneuvres real careful and would never hand over live ammo unless we show that we can handle it. So only time will tell the tale on how that turns out.
Aside from this well I'm starting get really fed up with it all and well, I've gotten naggy and really down at times. I do my best to get up at it again but since the school thing went to heck (will mention it below) I just lack the motivation at times. They love doing these "feed back" meetings groups inbetween. I feel I can only rely on 2 of my 4 colleagues, not that I don't trust the other 2 it's just that there are 2 that in my eyes have a heart and two that don't hold their critiques in. At times it can be real destructive and just ruin my head up more.
i v i l i a n -
i f e
My chances for an university are just as good as null at this rate. Seeing how the timeline turned out for the last couple of months in the service of his majesty, I'm just not gonna have time to spare to prepare a decent showcase for the entry to one of the 2 schools I want to apply to. So there goes that!
Artworkin' motivation going down with it, but I have to keep at it and present a kickass entry application next year instead. Planning on improving my grades from upper secondary while I'm at it too.
I've been picking up games like crazy for the PS2 the past half year. Mostly used games since they're cheap but I'm up at about 34 games now , so much gaming material, so little time. So I can say with a secure tone in my voice and text that I'll have stuff to play for quite a while after the army. ehm. yeah
Shadow of the Colossus European release FINALLY! Such a beautiful game, epic, fantastic, colossal!! It's been a thrill sofar and I'm still keeping at it. I got me a SotC T-shirt when I bought the game too! tho they only had size Small left (was a campaign for when the game was released last week, ~
nuclear-fishstick got it at the day of the release so his size is just right for 'im ) so I'm thinkin bout giving it to =
thedreamwolf since she's such an awesome friend and mentor and also seems to be really thrilled about the game (Ico kicked ass!). So a Shadow of the Colossus T-shirt will either be on the way for her upcoming birthday in May or I'll hand it over personally if the trip I'm planning to do over yonder works out after the army. Either way, she's getting the Tee.
I recieved a valentines day greeting from *
Hiphipo through snail-mail haha fantastic drawings and a cute card. She's totally worth the mention since she's been totally awesome sending me SMS when I'm in the army and always keeping my spirits up! My own angel
. Much
to you *
Hiphipo. I got her a present for her birthday that is today (March 5th) tho it might arrive a little late x_x its the thought that counts I guess~ still nontheless HAPPY BIRTHDAY *
Hiphipo!!!
Well that should just about sum these past weeks up, just felt nice to get it down on text.
Hasta la proxima!
/Felix
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12 weeks to go. . .
